Guess who's back, back again, tell a friend... I'M SORRY - I'm a 90's kid, Eminem lyrics are inscribed on to my brain haha!
Haha all jokes aside, Hello! So it's been a while hasn't it? I have no idea how I've just not made videos for the past 2 months, but it kinda just happened and well here we are!
I thought I'd get back into things by doing a Q&A which is basically the video I do when I can't think of another video idea (hey at least I'm honest?) and I thought it'd be a good video to do a update on a few things. I literally talked for about 50 minutes whilst making this video, so I did cut out an awful lot, cause I don't have time to sit and listen to me talk for 50 minutes, never mind you!
Also I'm sorry that the camera angle keeps changing and you may hear some lens focus noise, basically I forgot how my microphone worked and my camera kept dying. I promise from now on, videos should be a bit better quality and sound!
I kinda touched on why I suddenly just abandoned Vlogmas in the video, and like I say, YouTube has always been where I am the least confidence. For the past year, I have really struggled with YouTube and have felt so disheartened by the platform. When I'm feeling un confident, I just don't want to do stuff and I ended up getting really stressed about vlogmas (though I probably didn't show it) and I was feeling the pressure. I should have never done vlogmas cause I have a seriously boring life. I deffo shouldn't have just stopped vlogging but I'm not Michael J Fox so I don't have a time machine. I briefly mentioned about anxiety, which is something I don't talk about to anyone really, but I have been struggling with it and it's such a horrible thing to deal with. I've gone to my doctor and I am getting help, and I do think it's important to be open although I do hate, hate, talking about this kinda thing. I realise that if I heard someone talk about this, then I'd feel more normal so I do want to be a little more open about this kinda thing.
I took a break from videos, because I'm a firm believer that your health always comes first. Money, your job and things don't mean anything compared to you and your health and you have to look after that. I knew taking a break from YT could be a bit detrimental for my job but I knew that trying to make myself feel better was more important than money. I'd rather be feeling happier than feeling miserable and burnt out but having loads of nice things. If that makes sense at all?
Anyway, after having a break, I'm feeling a lot better about things. I need to stop basing my happiness on what is essentially numbers on a screen. Subscribers and views are important but they aren't the be all and end all.
I'm going to be making videos from now on that I enjoy, and doing what I want to do, not making videos that I think I should make cause everyone else is doing them. I'm going for quality over quantity, and I'm going to try and keep to a schedule
but I'm sure if you've ever had anxiety or low moods, you'll know it's kinda hard to predict how your brain will act all the time.
Please let me know if you have any video requests ( I mean if anyone is even reading this!) and if you have a preferred upload day:)
COME SAY HI :)
WHAT I'M WEARING:
TOP: Boohoo: http://bit.ly/2lPCxUY
Choker: Boohoo: http://bit.ly/2mvvygQ
Nails: Sally Hansen : Birthday Suit: http://www.boots.com/sally-hansen-miracle-gel-nail-polish-10183206 (wahey)
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